I want to buy a nice new television. For years I’ve peered into vast, majestic Telespace through a rather small (something like 12″ or 13″) screen on a Magnavox made TV set. A few years ago, I was bumped up to First Class with a nice 27″ model (an Xmas gift from my parents), but gave that up after a nasty breakup: I thought it was ‘mine’ (my parents gave it to me), she insisted it was ‘ours’, and I decided to walk away from the both of them (for troubles far deeper than that, to be sure). She also got to keep the satellite dish which was her gift that year, but really, who’s keeping score?

About a month ago and after years of dilligent service, my low-budget, non-HI-FI VCR (received with said tiny TV, also made by Magnavox) finally stopped playing tapes. It had been making gasps and grunts for a while, but the heads must have given up their ghost, as all image tracking left completely. So, I bought a fancy, Titanium-looking DVD/VCR combo to replace it. My vintage Philips DVD player and drab, now kaput VCR were usurped by a Samsung Progressive-Scan DVD-V4600 with composite outputs and 4-Head, HI-FI VCR.

Now, I’m itching to drop some dough on a Flat-Screen (not Flat-Panel) TV. Probably with a 20″ screen, probably by Samsung (Hey, I want them to match, alright?). From my research, I know that the image from the progressive-scan won’t look as good unless I get a digital set (for the non-interlaced image), but the sizes and prices of EDTV and HDTV sets are way out of my reach. And, I don’t want it to take up a lot of room in my apartment. Also, I don’t want watching TV to become a more prominent activity in my life. But, I really like watching movies, and I really like things to match.

So who is this Sizenuss character? A number of years ago, I created some imaginary character concepts, loosely inspired by the idea of spirits — or ‘Loas’ — from Voodoo. I did some automatic writing and came-up with about ten or so ‘Beings’, complete with names, traits and behaviors (largely nebulous and indistinct). New mythical creatures from my unconscious, so to speak.

Sizenuss is one such Being. Other names include Magbra, twins Beeno and Beena, Beng Beng, Imposs, Hister, and Spirus. Shortly afterwards, I recorded a series of songs, including one called “So says Sizenuss”, that today sound to me very inspired. I thought I’d call forth these Beings as companions for my current ventures. Perhaps these personalities will further show their colors, sounds and smells(?!) over time, perhaps not. Regardless, welcome all.

UPDATE: I’ve since remembered the names of Scribnus, Caloona, Nando and Netro.

I used to have a different blog hosted on my own site. Acutally, I still do, but I’ve shuttered it for the time being. I needed to put it behind me for a while, and I’ve seen other sites that have closed shop for a while with good results.

I started blogging regularly as an outlet from some personal upheavals several years ago, and it helped me feel like I was expanding my horizons. I could explore frontiers through linking and writing about my interests and activities. Now, I feel that same strong need, but my site doesn’t feel like the right place for it. Plus, all the comments it was getting were spam, I couldn’t tell if anyone was even reading it but me, and my drive for linking and writing about things had seemed to wither out. My site has earned a lot of equity and link cred over the years, but I need to lighten my load right now.

Except, I still want to write. I just don’t want anyone to know it’s me. I had regular readers (friends and strangers) who came to expect things other than I wanted anymore. I’ve needed to write in a more personal voice without anyone knowing me. My other site has links to articles I find interesting, music I’m listening to, books I’m reading, movies I’ve watched. But, that’s all an extension of my total identity which has been haunting me lately: I want to be someone else for a while, or at least focus on other facets.

Sometimes I just feel dreadful and nothing seems like comfort. Writing does. Whether I’m recounting my day, typing-up some mundane musings, or recording thoughts, putting words together is a little like singing to myself; it’s comforting. So, I’ve started this blog. And another one related to what I do for a living, as well as what i want to do more of. I like putting words together, so that’s what this blog is gonna be about: me writing about things.